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Tuesday, February 14, 2006 Today's is the day where lovers celebrate (but it's really silly for a guy to buy flowers for his girlfriend on this day).Valentine's Day is also a celebration of love & friendship among friends. As for me, this year's V-Day seems like an irony. I'm celebrating singlehood (though I'm not sure if it should be celebrated). I had made one of the biggest decisions in my life. We were going into different directions in life & pursuing different things. And I thought, perhaps, it is best we move on. If not, it'll just make us feel frustrated. He did a very sweet thing before V-day though. He made me a card with a self-penned poem. I loved it but the more I think about the nice things he did, the more frustrated I get cuz it'll put me in a dilemma. It is definitely not easy to let go of a relationship, much less a five year one. But I realized a relationship cannot be based on love & air alone. He may do things that touched me once in awhile but that is not going change the way what he wants in life or in the relationship & mine. I don't know if this decision is a right or a wrong one. Whatever it is, I have laid down my cards out on the table & there's no turning back. If you ask me whether I'm ready for another relationship (if there is) in the near future, I would say maybe I'm not. The process of getting to know someone all over again, adjusting to each other's habits & lifestyle, getting comfortable with one another is a very long & tiring process. And I don't think I can go through that. Now, I only hope that in time to come, I'll get used to being single. Afterall, I hadn't been single since I was 18. |
